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making Me new

Days before Easter, my most favorite day of the year.

Pastor David Beelen last Sunday, smiling, shared-; ” I love Holy Week, I love Holy Week.”

This week has ripped me, not in a spiritual way, or maybe yes I can label now the *snip pruning shears growing & being torn away. Sunday the girls in our congregation ministered to us with a dance ” I hear the chains falling..there’s an army rising up- there’s an army rising up, there’s an army rising up..to break every chain break every chain , break every chain..to break every chain, break every chain, break every chain.

I have wept this week. I have cried out to God to forgive me for my *almost affair , I have cried out to God this week to shelter my daughter’s hearts, I have cried out to God for wisdom and patience, to see my husband with new eyes. I wept watching a foster care video from older children in the system. God..Help. I am forgiven. I am washed new, cleansed. Liz’s grandpa Joe died this week, Joseph is with Jesus.

All the flowers in all the world do not compare with God’s glory. where did that resonate from, anew . He’s making me new.

Good Friday March 29,2013 I marked in my Bible next to this verse-; ” YOU are a hiding place for me; You, Lord, preserve me from trouble, You surround me with songs and shouts of deliverance. ( Amen. Yes God.

Psalm 32. starting with vs.2

“Blessed ( happy, fortunate, to be envied ) is the man to whom the Lord imputes no iniquity and in whose spirit there is no deceit.[Romans 4:7,8]. When I kept silence [before I confessed ], my bones wasted away through my groaning all the day long. For day and night Your hand [of displeasure] was heavy upon me; my moisture was turned into the drought of summer. Selah [ pause, and calmly think of that]! I acknowledged my sin to You, and my iniquity I did not hide. I said, I will confess my transgressions to the Lord [ continually unfolding the past til all is told]- then You [instantly] forgave me the guilt and iniquity of my sin. Selah [ pause, and calmly think of that]! For this [forgiveness] let everyone who is godly pray- pray to You in a time when You may be found; surely when the great waters [of trial] overflow, they shall not reach [the spirit in] him. You are a hiding place for me; You, Lord, preserve me from trouble, You surround me with songs and shouts of deliverance. Selah [ pause, and calmly think of that]! I [ the Lord] will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go ; I will counsel you with My eye upon you. Be not like the horse or the mule, which lack understanding , which must have their mouths held firm with bit and bridle, or else they will not come to you. Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but he who trusts in, relies on, and confidently leans on the Lord shall be compassed about with mercy and with loving- kindness. Be glad in the Lord and rejoice, you [ uncompromisingly] righteous [ you who are upright and in right standing with Him]; shout for JOY , all you upright in heart !



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” Unto You , O Lord, do I bring my life. vs2.O my God, I trust, lean on, rely on, and am confident in You. Let me not be put to shame or [my hope in You] be disappointed ; let not my enemies triumph over me. Yes, let none who trust and wait hopefully and look for You be put to shame or be disappointed ; let them be ashamed who forsake the right or deal treacherously without cause. Show me Your ways, O Lord ; teach me Your paths. Guide me in Your truth and faithfulness and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation ; for You [ You only and altogether ] do I wait [ expectantly ] all the day long. Remember, O Lord, Your tender mercy and loving -kindness ; for they have been ever from of old. Remember not the sins (the lapses and frailties ) of my youth or my transgressions ; according to Your mercy and steadfast love remember me, for Your goodness’ sake, O Lord. vs8.Good and upright is the Lord ; therefore will He instruct sinners in [His] way.  He leads the humble in what is right, and the humble He teaches His way. All the paths of the Lord are mercy and steadfast love, even truth and faithfulness are they for those who keep His covenant and His testimonies. For Your name’s sake, O Lord, pardon my iniquity and my guilt, for [ they are ] great. Who is the man who reverently fears and worships the Lord? Him shall He teach in the way that he should choose. He himself shall dwell at ease, and his offspring shall inherit the land. The secret [ of the sweet, satisfying companionship ] of the Lord have they who fear (revere and worship) Him, and He will show them His covenant and reveal to them it’s [ deep, inner ] meaning. My eyes are ever toward the Lord, for He will pluck my feet out of the net. [ Lord ] turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are multiplied ; bring me out of my distresses. Behold my affliction and my pain and forgive all my sins [ of thinking and doing ]. Consider my enemies , for they abound ; they hate me with cruel hatred. O keep me, Lord, and deliver me ; let me not be ashamed or disappointed , for my trust and my refuge are in You. Let  integrity and uprightness preserve me, for I wait for and expect You. (last verse,vs.22. “Redeem Israel , O God, out of all their troubles.

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Go out with joy

i am coming upon my 36th year.  this morning talked with Naomi from ChoiceSchools , a week ago today interviewed with Jennifer Dietrich for a food service substitute position at WMAES and was guaranteed a hire officially now.

Mark text me today “Let’s move.”.my reply “I just got a new job, at the kid’s school !

For over a week I have been in Isaiah chapters 49-52. Isaiah 52:12-15

“For you will not go out with haste, nor will you go in flight [as was necessary when Israel left Egypt] ; for the Lord will go before you, and the God of Israel will be your rear guard. Behold, My Servant shall deal wisely and shall prosper, He shall be exalted and extolled and shall stand very high. vs 14.'[For many the Servant of God became an object of horror, many were astonished at Him] His face and His whole apperance were marred more than any man’s, and His form beyond that of the sons of men- but just as many were astonished at Him, So shall He startle and sprinkle many nations, and kings shall shut their mouths because of Him; for that which has not been told them shall they see, and that which they have not heard shall they consider and understand.

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Habakkuk 2:8-20

” Because you [King of Babylon] have plundered many nations, all who are left of the people shall plunder you–because of men’s blood and for the violence done to the earth, to the city and all the people who live in each city. Woe to him who obtains wicked gain for his house, [ who thinks by so doing ] to set his nest on high that he may be preserved from calamity and delivered from the power of evil ! You have devised shame to your house by cutting off and putting an end to many peoples, and you have sinned against and fortified your own life. For the stone shall cry out of the wall [ built in sin, to accuse you ], and the beam out of the woodwork will answer it [ agreeing with it’s charge against you ]. Woe to him who builds a town with blood and establishes a city by iniquity ! Behold, is it not by appointment of the Lord of hosts that the nations toil only to satisfy the fire [ that will consume their work ], and the peoples weary themselves only for emptiness, falsity, and futility ? But [ the time is coming when ] the earth shall be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord as the waters cover the sea. Woe to him who gives his neighbors drink, who pours out your bottle to them and adds to it your poisonous and blighting wrath and also makes them drunk, that you may look on their stripped condition and pour out foul shame [ on their glory] ! You [ yourself] will be filled with shame and contempt instead of glory. Drink also and be like an uncircumcised [ heathen ] ! The cup [ of wrath] in the Lord’s right hand will come around to you [O destroyer], and foul shame shall be upon your own glory ! For the violence done to Lebanon will cover and overwhelm you ; the destruction of the animals [ which the violence frightened away ] will terrify you on accord of men’s blood and the violence done to the land, to the city and all it’s inhabitants. What profit is the graven image when its maker has formed it ? It is only a molten image and a teacher of lies. For the maker trusts in his own creations [ as his gods ] when he makes dumb idols. Woe to him who says to the wooden image, Awake ! and to the dumb stone, Arise, teach ! [Yet, it cannot, for ] behold, it is laid over with gold and silver and there is no breath at all inside it ! vs20. “But the Lord is in His holy temple ; let all the earth hush and keep silence before Him.”

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psalm 121

I Will LIFT up MY EYES TO THE HILLS [ around Jerusalem, to sacred Mount Zion and Mount Moriah]–From whence shall my help come? [Jer.3:23] MY HELP COMES FROM THE LORD, Who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to slip OR to be moved; He Who keeps you will not slumber. [I Sam.2:9, Ps. 127:1, Prov.3:23, 26.Isa.27:3.]

Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand [the side not carrying a shield] .[Isa.25:4] The sun shall not smite you by day, nor the moon by night. [Ps.91:5; Isa.49:10; Rev.7:16.] vs.7 The Lord will keep you from all evil; He will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore. [Duet.28:6; Prov.2:8,3:6.}

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Isaiah 19

The MOURNFUL , inspired prediction (a burden to be lifted up) concerning Egypt; Behold, the Lord is riding on a swift cloud and comes to Egypt ; and the idols of Egypt will tremble at His presence, and the hearts of the Egyptians will melt within them. And I will stir up Egyptians against Egyptians, and they will fight , everyone against his brother and every one against his neighbor, city against city, kingdom against kingdom. And the spirit of the Egyptians within them will become exhausted and emptied out and will fail, and I will destroy their counsel and confound their plans ; and they will seek counsel from the idols and the sorcerers , and from those having familiar spirits ( the mediums ) and the wizards. And I will give over the Egyptians into the hand of a hard and cruel master, and a fierce king will rule over them, says the Lord, the Lord of hosts. And the waters shall fail from the Nile, and the river shall be wasted and become dry. And the rivers shall become foul, the streams and canals of Egypt shall be diminished and dried up, the reeds and the rushes shall wither and rot away. The meadows by the Nile, by the brink of the Nile, and all the sown fields of the Nile shall become dry, be blown away, and be no more. The fishermen will lament, and all who cast a hook into the Nile will mourn ; and they who spread nets upon the waters will languish. Moreover, they who work with combed flax and they who weave white [cotton] cloth will be confounded and in despair. [ Those who are ] the pillars and foundations of Egypt will be crushed, and all those who work for hire or who build dams will be grieved. The princes of Zoan [ ancient capital of the Pharaohs ] are utterly foolish ; the counsel of the wisest counselors of Pharaoh has become witless (stupid). How can you say to Pharaoh , I am a son of the wise, a son of ancient kings ? Where then are your wise men? Let them tell you now [if they are so wise] , and let them make known what the Lord of Hosts has purposed against Egypt [if they can]. The princes of Zoan have become fools, and the princes of Memphis are confused and deceived; those who are the cornerstones of her tribes have led Egypt astray.The Lord has mingled a spirit of perverseness , error, and confusion within her, [ her leaders] have caused Egypt to stagger in all her doings, as a drunken man staggers in his vomit. Neither can any work [ done singly or by concerted action] accomplish anything for Egypt, whether by head or tail, palm branch or rush [ high or low ] . In that day will the Egyptians be like women [ timid and helpless ] ; and they will tremble and fear because of the shaking of the hand of the Lord of hosts when He shakes over them. And the land of Judah [ allied to Assyria ] shall become a terror to the Egyptians ; everyone to whom mention of it is made will be afraid and everyone whom mentions it- to him will they turn in fear, because of the purpose of the Lord of hosts which He purposes against Egypt. In that day there will be five cities in the land of Egypt that speak the language of [the Hebrews of ] Canaan and swear allegiance to the Lord of hosts. One of them will be called the City of Sun or Destruction. In that day there will be a altar to the Lord in the midst of the land of Egypt, and a pillar to the Lord at it’s border. And it will be a sign and a witness to the Lord of hosts in the land of Egypt ; for they will cry to the Lord because of oppressors, and He will send them a savior, even a mighty one, and he will deliver them. [Judg.2:18,3:9,15.] And the Lord will make Himself known to Egypt, and the Egyptians will know ( have knowledge of, be acquainted with, give heed to, and cherish) the Lord in that day and will worship with sacrifices of animal and vegetable offerings ; they will vow a vow to the Lord and perform it. And the Lord shall smite Egypt, smiting and healing it ; and they will return to the Lord, and He will listen to their entreaties and heal them. In that day shall there be a highway out of Egypt to Assyria , and the Assyrian will come into Egypt and the Egyptian into Assyria ; and the Egyptians will worship [the Lord ] with the Assyrians. In that day Israel shall be the third, with Egypt and with Assyria [ in a Messianic league ], a blessing in the midst of the earth, Whom the Lord of hosts has blessed, saying, Blessed be Egypt My people and Assyria the work of My hands and Israel My heritage. 1-25