Days before Easter, my most favorite day of the year.
Pastor David Beelen last Sunday, smiling, shared-; ” I love Holy Week, I love Holy Week.”
This week has ripped me, not in a spiritual way, or maybe yes I can label now the *snip pruning shears growing & being torn away. Sunday the girls in our congregation ministered to us with a dance ” I hear the chains falling..there’s an army rising up- there’s an army rising up, there’s an army rising up..to break every chain break every chain , break every chain..to break every chain, break every chain, break every chain.
I have wept this week. I have cried out to God to forgive me for my *almost affair , I have cried out to God this week to shelter my daughter’s hearts, I have cried out to God for wisdom and patience, to see my husband with new eyes. I wept watching a foster care video from older children in the system. God..Help. I am forgiven. I am washed new, cleansed. Liz’s grandpa Joe died this week, Joseph is with Jesus.
All the flowers in all the world do not compare with God’s glory. where did that resonate from, anew . He’s making me new.
Good Friday March 29,2013 I marked in my Bible next to this verse-; ” YOU are a hiding place for me; You, Lord, preserve me from trouble, You surround me with songs and shouts of deliverance. ( Amen. Yes God.
Psalm 32. starting with vs.2
“Blessed ( happy, fortunate, to be envied ) is the man to whom the Lord imputes no iniquity and in whose spirit there is no deceit.[Romans 4:7,8]. When I kept silence [before I confessed ], my bones wasted away through my groaning all the day long. For day and night Your hand [of displeasure] was heavy upon me; my moisture was turned into the drought of summer. Selah [ pause, and calmly think of that]! I acknowledged my sin to You, and my iniquity I did not hide. I said, I will confess my transgressions to the Lord [ continually unfolding the past til all is told]- then You [instantly] forgave me the guilt and iniquity of my sin. Selah [ pause, and calmly think of that]! For this [forgiveness] let everyone who is godly pray- pray to You in a time when You may be found; surely when the great waters [of trial] overflow, they shall not reach [the spirit in] him. You are a hiding place for me; You, Lord, preserve me from trouble, You surround me with songs and shouts of deliverance. Selah [ pause, and calmly think of that]! I [ the Lord] will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go ; I will counsel you with My eye upon you. Be not like the horse or the mule, which lack understanding , which must have their mouths held firm with bit and bridle, or else they will not come to you. Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but he who trusts in, relies on, and confidently leans on the Lord shall be compassed about with mercy and with loving- kindness. Be glad in the Lord and rejoice, you [ uncompromisingly] righteous [ you who are upright and in right standing with Him]; shout for JOY , all you upright in heart !