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making Me new

Days before Easter, my most favorite day of the year.

Pastor David Beelen last Sunday, smiling, shared-; ” I love Holy Week, I love Holy Week.”

This week has ripped me, not in a spiritual way, or maybe yes I can label now the *snip pruning shears growing & being torn away. Sunday the girls in our congregation ministered to us with a dance ” I hear the chains falling..there’s an army rising up- there’s an army rising up, there’s an army rising up..to break every chain break every chain , break every chain..to break every chain, break every chain, break every chain.

I have wept this week. I have cried out to God to forgive me for my *almost affair , I have cried out to God this week to shelter my daughter’s hearts, I have cried out to God for wisdom and patience, to see my husband with new eyes. I wept watching a foster care video from older children in the system. God..Help. I am forgiven. I am washed new, cleansed. Liz’s grandpa Joe died this week, Joseph is with Jesus.

All the flowers in all the world do not compare with God’s glory. where did that resonate from, anew . He’s making me new.

Good Friday March 29,2013 I marked in my Bible next to this verse-; ” YOU are a hiding place for me; You, Lord, preserve me from trouble, You surround me with songs and shouts of deliverance. ( Amen. Yes God.

Psalm 32. starting with vs.2

“Blessed ( happy, fortunate, to be envied ) is the man to whom the Lord imputes no iniquity and in whose spirit there is no deceit.[Romans 4:7,8]. When I kept silence [before I confessed ], my bones wasted away through my groaning all the day long. For day and night Your hand [of displeasure] was heavy upon me; my moisture was turned into the drought of summer. Selah [ pause, and calmly think of that]! I acknowledged my sin to You, and my iniquity I did not hide. I said, I will confess my transgressions to the Lord [ continually unfolding the past til all is told]- then You [instantly] forgave me the guilt and iniquity of my sin. Selah [ pause, and calmly think of that]! For this [forgiveness] let everyone who is godly pray- pray to You in a time when You may be found; surely when the great waters [of trial] overflow, they shall not reach [the spirit in] him. You are a hiding place for me; You, Lord, preserve me from trouble, You surround me with songs and shouts of deliverance. Selah [ pause, and calmly think of that]! I [ the Lord] will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go ; I will counsel you with My eye upon you. Be not like the horse or the mule, which lack understanding , which must have their mouths held firm with bit and bridle, or else they will not come to you. Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but he who trusts in, relies on, and confidently leans on the Lord shall be compassed about with mercy and with loving- kindness. Be glad in the Lord and rejoice, you [ uncompromisingly] righteous [ you who are upright and in right standing with Him]; shout for JOY , all you upright in heart !



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” Unto You , O Lord, do I bring my life. vs2.O my God, I trust, lean on, rely on, and am confident in You. Let me not be put to shame or [my hope in You] be disappointed ; let not my enemies triumph over me. Yes, let none who trust and wait hopefully and look for You be put to shame or be disappointed ; let them be ashamed who forsake the right or deal treacherously without cause. Show me Your ways, O Lord ; teach me Your paths. Guide me in Your truth and faithfulness and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation ; for You [ You only and altogether ] do I wait [ expectantly ] all the day long. Remember, O Lord, Your tender mercy and loving -kindness ; for they have been ever from of old. Remember not the sins (the lapses and frailties ) of my youth or my transgressions ; according to Your mercy and steadfast love remember me, for Your goodness’ sake, O Lord. vs8.Good and upright is the Lord ; therefore will He instruct sinners in [His] way.  He leads the humble in what is right, and the humble He teaches His way. All the paths of the Lord are mercy and steadfast love, even truth and faithfulness are they for those who keep His covenant and His testimonies. For Your name’s sake, O Lord, pardon my iniquity and my guilt, for [ they are ] great. Who is the man who reverently fears and worships the Lord? Him shall He teach in the way that he should choose. He himself shall dwell at ease, and his offspring shall inherit the land. The secret [ of the sweet, satisfying companionship ] of the Lord have they who fear (revere and worship) Him, and He will show them His covenant and reveal to them it’s [ deep, inner ] meaning. My eyes are ever toward the Lord, for He will pluck my feet out of the net. [ Lord ] turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are multiplied ; bring me out of my distresses. Behold my affliction and my pain and forgive all my sins [ of thinking and doing ]. Consider my enemies , for they abound ; they hate me with cruel hatred. O keep me, Lord, and deliver me ; let me not be ashamed or disappointed , for my trust and my refuge are in You. Let  integrity and uprightness preserve me, for I wait for and expect You. (last verse,vs.22. “Redeem Israel , O God, out of all their troubles.

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Go out with joy

i am coming upon my 36th year.  this morning talked with Naomi from ChoiceSchools , a week ago today interviewed with Jennifer Dietrich for a food service substitute position at WMAES and was guaranteed a hire officially now.

Mark text me today “Let’s move.”.my reply “I just got a new job, at the kid’s school !

For over a week I have been in Isaiah chapters 49-52. Isaiah 52:12-15

“For you will not go out with haste, nor will you go in flight [as was necessary when Israel left Egypt] ; for the Lord will go before you, and the God of Israel will be your rear guard. Behold, My Servant shall deal wisely and shall prosper, He shall be exalted and extolled and shall stand very high. vs 14.'[For many the Servant of God became an object of horror, many were astonished at Him] His face and His whole apperance were marred more than any man’s, and His form beyond that of the sons of men- but just as many were astonished at Him, So shall He startle and sprinkle many nations, and kings shall shut their mouths because of Him; for that which has not been told them shall they see, and that which they have not heard shall they consider and understand.