There are so many days that I am ‘busing myself with every step– focused on the mundane checklist that is but also I have created a wall that disengages all feeling, the only way to describe is my inner ‘sense’ says back to heidi’s heart–“deal with this tomorrow, just keep walking forward”..shallow living , complicated lifestyles are created- I am in desperation avoiding this mentality society has ‘molded’ formed over us to being so busy, (distracted)..rushed in multiple directions- Mark and I have been feeling a big tug to move on away from Michigan, this move would not be a ‘suddenly’..many moons have grown to furthermore established this content but unsatisfied feeling. ” What if it’s not right “..Well..we listen. we find peace. If it’s not right we will know.
Psalm 37 has been where my Bible has read for weeks..weeks..I have sat for days refusing to turn the page until the Lord assures that what I have read has now gone deep and it’s time to turn the page..sounds so silly to you , not to me- I will wait for the reassurance that this chapter Psalm 37 vs 11-40 has completed it’s ‘time’ in my spirit. To be a student of the Word, be a student of the Word. I go back to the words after Psalm 37:23, (small paragraph ‘life point’ in my Joyce Meyer Bible:)- “GOD will tell us the way to go..
PSALM 37: 11-40
But the meek [ in the end ] shall inherit the earth and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace. The wicked plot against the [uncompromisingly ] righteous ( the upright in right standing with God ); they gnash at them with their teeth. The Lord laughs at [ the wicked ], for He sees that their own day [ of defeat ] is coming. The wicked draw the sword and bend their bows to cast down the poor and needy, to slay those who walk uprightly ( blameless in conduct and in conversation). The swords [ of the wicked ] shall enter their own hearts, and their bows shall be broken. Better is little that the [ uncompromisingly ] righteous have than the abundance [ of possessions ] of many who are wrong and wicked. For the arms of the wicked shall be broken, but the Lord upholds the [ consistently ] righteous . The Lord knows the days of the upright and blameless , and their heritage will abide forever. They shall not be put to shame in the time of evil ; and in the days of famine they shall be satisfied. But the wicked shall perish, and the enemies of the Lord shall be as the fat of lambs [ that is consumed in smoke ] and as the glory of the pastures. The wicked borrow and pay not again [ for they may be unable ] , but the [ uncompromisingly ] righteous deal kindly and give [ for they are able ]. For such as are blessed of God shall [ in the end ] inherit the earth, but they that are cursed of Him shall be cut off. vs.23 THE STEPS OF A [ GOOD ] MAN ARE DIRECTED AND ESTABLISHED BY THE LORD WHEN HE DELIGHTS IN HIS WAY [ AND HE BUSIES HIMSELF WITH HIS EVERY STEP ] “. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly be cast down, for the Lord grasps his hand in support and upholds him. I have been young and now am old, yet have I not seen the [ uncompromisingly ] righteous forsaken or their seed begging bread. All day long they are merciful and deal graciously ; they lend, and their offspring are blessed. Depart from evil and do good; and you will dwell forever [ securely ] . For the Lord delights in justice and forsakes not His saints ; they are preserved forever, but the offspring of the wicked [ in time ] shall be cut off. [ Then ] the [ consistently ] righteous shall inherit the land and dwell upon it forever. The mouth of the [ uncompromisingly ] righteous utters wisdom , and his tongue speaks with justice. The law of his God is in his heart ; none of his steps shall slide. The wicked lie in wait for the [ uncompromisingly } righteous and seek to put them to death. The Lord will not leave them in their hands, or [ suffer them to ] condemn them when they are judged. Wait for and expect the Lord and keep and heed His way, and He will exalt you to inherit the land ; [ in the end ] when the wicked are cut off, you shall see it. I have seen a wicked man in great power and spreading himself like a green tree in it’s native soil, Yet he passed away, and behold, he was not ; yes, I sought and inquired for him, but he could not be found. Mark the blameless man and behold the upright, for there is a happy end for the man of peace. As for transgressors, they shall be destroyed together; in the end the wicked shall be cut off, But the salvation of the [ consistently ] righteous is of the Lord; He is their Refuge and secure Stronghold in the time of trouble. AND THE LORD helps them and delivers them ; HE delivers them from the wicked and saves them , because they trust and take refuge in Him.
(2 nights ago watched Kobe Bryant ‘Muse’ documentary . It helped me see hope in Mark’s back situation & overall “our journey”, and i will remember Kobe saying towards the end of the film, “I saw it so many times that when it happened it was there, so natural –i saw it so many times”..